Tonight was one of those times. Like usual, I had at least 10 tabs open on my internet browser, speed reading through a ton of blogs, online tutorials, photographers advice, and browsing through some online fashion catalogues. After reading all those online materials, I closed all of the tabs and sat on my bed, totally lost.
I hate how I rely on the internet so much--for knowledge and information, shopping, connecting with friends and family, doing business, and entertainment. I cannot imagine life without my laptop or internet. I feel like a dog on a leash, being pulled and led by this thing called "technology," which has become as essential as love, hope, and laughter.
I think I need to blame my inability to leave my laptop and the internet alone on 2 things. First, my major. Second, my husband.
Please allow me to elaborate the first reason. I am a Visual Technologies major at Dixie State College now. Meaning, the classes I go to are equipped with computers, and no papers or pens needed to take notes. How convenient, right?? Also, I have to do everything on the computer. Photoshop, illustrator, flash, building websites, and coding. My handwriting has become so messy I don't think my mom can recognize them now (wait...I don't think she even knows how my handwriting is like since I never write her. But, you get the point.) I can use those programs really well now though. I guess it's a thing because before taking this course I have no idea how to open a file on Photoshop!
Sometimes I really miss being an English major. I miss all of the books that we had to read and all the papers we had to write. I miss taking notes in notepads and hearing poems being read and discussed. I felt like a more refined person! I feel like a total nerd now. I can read the binary codes! I even got 100 percent in my programming class. If you know me at all, you know I sucked at everything to do with computer. The only things that I could do were to play songs, write papers in Microsoft Word, and chatting on MSN. I guess I should be grateful that I have come so far and learn so much and do so well in my graphic and web design course. It still feels weird though, like I lose a piece of me after gaining a new piece.
Now, why do I blame my husband on my heavy reliance on the internet. He ignores me! Well, that's not really true because he works on his computer like 24/7. Being a full time student and a full time freelance web developer, it's no wonder he has no time to hang out with me. But still... I get bored! Sometimes the way we "talk" to each other was through Facebook or google chat. So tech-y, right? Speaking is overrated. But I love him nonetheless.
K, my point is the lesson I learn from my reflection on my life is that I need to get off the computer and go enjoy life outside of the internet.