Monday, April 26, 2010

Story #275: One of the many ramblings I have

Once in a while I like to sit and ponder about my life, reflecting on some precious lessons I have learnt so far, and hoping to get some kind of epiphany about what I should do in the future.

Tonight was one of those times. Like usual, I had at least 10 tabs open on my internet browser, speed reading through a ton of blogs, online tutorials, photographers advice, and browsing through some online fashion catalogues. After reading all those online materials, I closed all of the tabs and sat on my bed, totally lost.

I hate how I rely on the internet so much--for knowledge and information, shopping, connecting with friends and family, doing business, and entertainment. I cannot imagine life without my laptop or internet. I feel like a dog on a leash, being pulled and led by this thing called "technology," which has become as essential as love, hope, and laughter.

I think I need to blame my inability to leave my laptop and the internet alone on 2 things. First, my major. Second, my husband.

Please allow me to elaborate the first reason. I am a Visual Technologies major at Dixie State College now. Meaning, the classes I go to are equipped with computers, and no papers or pens needed to take notes. How convenient, right?? Also, I have to do everything on the computer. Photoshop, illustrator, flash, building websites, and coding. My handwriting has become so messy I don't think my mom can recognize them now (wait...I don't think she even knows how my handwriting is like since I never write her. But, you get the point.) I can use those programs really well now though. I guess it's a thing because before taking this course I have no idea how to open a file on Photoshop!

Sometimes I really miss being an English major. I miss all of the books that we had to read and all the papers we had to write. I miss taking notes in notepads and hearing poems being read and discussed. I felt like a more refined person! I feel like a total nerd now. I can read the binary codes! I even got 100 percent in my programming class. If you know me at all, you know I sucked at everything to do with computer. The only things that I could do were to play songs, write papers in Microsoft Word, and chatting on MSN. I guess I should be grateful that I have come so far and learn so much and do so well in my graphic and web design course. It still feels weird though, like I lose a piece of me after gaining a new piece.

Now, why do I blame my husband on my heavy reliance on the internet. He ignores me! Well, that's not really true because he works on his computer like 24/7. Being a full time student and a full time freelance web developer, it's no wonder he has no time to hang out with me. But still... I get bored! Sometimes the way we "talk" to each other was through Facebook or google chat. So tech-y, right? Speaking is overrated. But I love him nonetheless.

K, my point is the lesson I learn from my reflection on my life is that I need to get off the computer and go enjoy life outside of the internet.


Tyler said...

Hey, I totally feel the same way! Internet is slowly killing us all and we are being fooled by it

ivy ting said...

that's because you love your only beloved get on MSN or Skype..i wanna talk to you!