Friday, September 16, 2011

Story #354: Everything is going to be OK

Sometimes when I let my mind wander, different images and memories of me making a fool of myself would start popping into my mind. Everytime and embarrassing image float across my mind, I would try to block it out by saying, "AAAAAAAA!!!" or "STOP!" Because I often said it out loud, I usually startled my husband in the other room and he would jump and ask, "What, what?" to which I always replied, "nothing".

I had a particular bad day two weeks ago. I felt like I had made a fool of myself big time, rejected, incompetent, and most of all, a failure. I was suddenly really scared of everything. I was scared to be alone, I was scared to be with people, I was scared to go outside. In essence, I was depressed. My sweet husband and his shoulders to cry on made me feel a whole lot better. One thing he said that I thought was truly a word of wisdom is "At least the worst is over." He was right. The worst was over, I faced my fear and I was surprised that things are turning out a lot better than I had anticipated. He also found me a quote that I absolutely adore: "No day is so bad it can't be fixed with a nap" by Carrie P. Snow. She was right! I took a nap and when I woke up I was ready to take on the challenges laying ahead.

The other day I was talking to a friend, expressing how daunting some things in life seem to me. I also told her about my fear of public speaking, being the center of attention in front of people I don't know well, and showing up on a photo shoot all nervous. Though I have had similar conversation with other people and have received incredible advice and encouragement, what my friend said to me that day was by far the most powerful. She simply said, "Everything will be over in an hour" (she was of course referring to teaching). And just like that it calmed me and somehow that simple little phrase took root in my heart. I noticed that as I remind myself that whatever my fear for something might be, it will soon become the past. Once the storm passes, the sky will clear up and the sun will shine (if it's still daytime).

Everyday everyone is fighting a battle of their own. To those who can't see the rainbow after the storm, just have faith that in a matter of a few hours or days or months the storm will be over.
And take a nap sometimes :)

Mr.L took this when I was taking a nap. 

1 comment:

Ivy Ting said...

Aiyaaaa.. is Xiao Bei!! Long time didnt see him liao. LOL
Nice new layout!