My heart leaps up when I behold
A Rainbow in the sky:
So was it when my life began;
So is it now I am a man;
So be it when I shall grow old,
Or let me die!
The Child is father of the man;
And I wish my days to be
Bound each to each by natural piety.
I was just thinking about one of the things I remember reading in my biology class in high school : Nothing can stop growth. I never really thought much about that phrase much but it took on a new meaning after I got pregnant. There truly is nothing much I can do about the growing baby inside of me. I can't stop it from growing big without doing something bad to it. This is how nature works, things need to grow and to stop growth is a bad thing (unless maybe weeds). When I became pregnant, I felt like I have lost control of my body. I couldn't help but feel fatigue and sleeping for 12 hours a day did not seem to help at all. I couldn't stop my belly, my butt, my thighs from getting bigger and bigger (surprisingly my breasts refused to grow!). I couldn't help that my gum is bleeding like crazy when I brush my teeth sometimes. I certainly couldn't help getting up and out of bed every five minutes to go use the bathroom.
Now that my pregnancy is almost coming to an end, I am not exactly sure how I feel about that. I enjoyed being pregnant. But I can't wait to have my body back. I can't wait to go exercise and lose all the weight I gained. But then again, I don't want to not be able feel my baby kicking up a storm inside me and rest his sweet little butt against my belly button. I love to feel him grow. It's a miracle to witness growth first hand. This must be how Heavenly Father feels with all the things that he had created. How can I preserve this sweet memory and feeling forever? I am scared that I will forget how wonderful it feels to look down at my watermelon sized belly and smile like an idiot.
We've got most things ready for Liam's arrival. We've got the crib ready and decorated, we've transformed out bedside cabinets into his changing table, we've installed his car seat in the car, we've bought soy formula and baby bath tub, I've got my birth plan done, we've got all the movies I want to watch for when I enter the hospital, we've registered at the hospital, I've packed my hospital bag, my Relief Society sisters already have meals lined up for me for a month, and my mom and sister are flying in to help out in a couple of weeks. I think that's about it, right? Am I missing anything essential?
I went in my weekly appointment with my OB today and I got my group B strep result back. Negative. Yay! That means I don't need to get on antibiotics for it. She also checked me for dilation and effacement. She said I am about 3cm dilated and 80% effaced and that she wouldn't be surprised if the baby comes next week. I am a little freaked out. Actually, I AM SCARED!!!! Any last minute advice? I am so nervous and I feel like crying!! I sure hope the baby doesn't come this week because she is going out of town tomorrow and won't be back til the end of the week. So, hang in there, bebe. Come next week or the week after, I can seriously wait for another week or two. Oh, an update on my pelvic bone pain. It is GONE! I still feel the pressure cause the baby's head is already facing and pushing downward, but the intense pain that caused me to wince every step I took disappeared. This is all thanks to my chiropractor. He did some painful adjustments and the next day I no longer feel any pain. Miracle!
|Not sure if you can tell, but if you look closely at my braid, my hair is pink, teal, and purple. I think pink is more obvious.|
|All ready for the little prince!|